I Love You

I love you the three strongest word you can say, next to I hate you.
The difference is I love you has a larger effect on someone.
If you got told that someone that you love, loves you, what would you say?
My response was what are you serious.
I honestly don't believe him, and I don't think I will.
This person means the world to me, but I won't believe that he loves me like I love him.
My brother said "You have no soul." Because I take cold showers, he can't hurt me, and he can't make me laugh or smile.
I could understand that but I didn't believe him until the I love you came around and I didn't smile at all I think I was confused, I still am, I can't seperate the truth from a lie.
I take cold showers because, because I like cold showers.
I don't laugh because he's not funny, I dont laugh at funny things I laugh at embaressing moments and awkward ones to say the least.
I don't smile because I don't like smiling.
Okay so TRUTH is I am depressed and THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT HAVE A SOUL!!!!
I still love, get mad, cry, smile, hate, and all those other emotions, I just don't show that I have emotions to people.